Healing Is Difficult.

 

VERSE 1

Far from happy ever after
Hearts aligned to form two lovers
One love bound unconditional
The other hid undercover

Where are you, my bride
Heart strings played out and tore
Sunlight in your eyes washed away
As I daydream beyond the shore

CHORUS
 You said we'll stay friends
But healing is difficult

Yes, my past lover
Healing is difficult

VERSE 2
 You seem happy in disaster
Happy to leave me in darkness
This is the moment I need
To accept the heartless

Now you've left my house
My heart and my hands
Emptiness, total abyss
There's nothing I should miss

CHORUS
 But healing is difficult
Yes, my past lover
Healing is difficult

VERSE 3
 Can you feel nothing
Am I left holding everything
Your betrayal is something

That will live inside me
Leaving my aura with nothing

And when you feel my pain
You will know

Healing is difficult.

I Am My Own Worst Enemy

Verse 1

Walking down the dark lit street

My body endures the bitter miles

And the darker the night gets

Only more will it fade my smile

You know I'm running from you

Well maybe I'm lost inside my head

Deeper do my thoughts consume me

Filling my mind with words unsaid

So before you lose your mind

There's truth in these words

Chorus

You always told me you were my worst

But I'm my own worst enemy

So before you put yourself down

I am my own worst enemy

Verse 2

Well, do you know how my heart breaks

When you say you're not good enough

I'm the master of making skies grey

Maybe the sun's just had enough

'Cuz I'm walking down this dark lit street

I've only got myself to blame

And you think your actions will hurt

It's my pride that sinks with shame

So before you lose my mind

There's truth in my words

Chorus

You always told me you were my worst

But I'm my own worst enemy

So before you put yourself down

I am my own worst enemy

Verse 3

And if I could take this year back

All the mistakes we made

I'd take it all back, back, back

Start again and shine in shade

So before you lose your mind

There's truth in my words

Chorus

You always told me you were my worst

But I'm my own worst enemy

So before you put yourself down

I am my own worst enemy

Rage.

VERSE 1

There are reasons to be beautiful

But the drugs distort your vision

So you're breathing out poison

Lying to me with sweet precision

Intoxicated and blazed

You're suspect to my rage

Never will you know the hurt

Of a victim in a polluted cage

CHORUS

Get your guns out

Because tonight you're blazing

Get your engine started

While the anger's raging

Put the metal to the floor

Tonight we're going crazy

I'm crashing out of love

(while you're crashing hard)

VERSE 2

Saturated in all this blood

Stains cover the bed sheets

No bleach, I'm using gasoline

To torch the lover who cheats

The stench of your black soul

Fumes of regret and betrayal

They only complicate the bruises

Leaving this broken heart to frail

CHORUS

Get your guns out

Because tonight you're blazing

Get your engine started

While the anger's raging

Put the metal to the floor

Tonight we're going crazy

I'm crashing out of love

(while you're crashing hard)

VERSE 3

Love will never drive away

Lust will never look back

You're ticking w/ a cocaine heart

It'll go off with a heartattack

And this will fucking kill you

As you killed this loving spirit

The future, The love, The pride

Freedom is the night, I hear it

BRIDGE

When he turned his back

I never looked back

CHORUS

Get your guns out

Because tonight you're blazing

Get your engine started

While the anger's raging

Put the metal to the floor

Tonight we're going crazy

I'm crashing out of love

(while you're crashing hard)

Sweet Child of Fear

VERSE 1

The blade turns cold

pressed against your skin

You're out for blood

Now it's my turn to begin

And you won't stop me

When the patience thins

You've been a nightmare

Prisoned in hell with all your sins

So now that you have it coming

CHORUS

You don't run the world

My sweet child of fear

You don't get second chances

When the hour is near

The hour has come

What's done is done

The hour has come

What's done is done

Next Chapter

VERSE 2

Let the transfusion of love

turn for the worse

Inject the poison of control

Subdue your evil curse

Because I won't stop procedures

No more shelter in your vindiction

The nurse is banned from entering

Now silence yourself for the conviction

So now that you have it coming

CHORUS

You don't run the world

My sweet child of fear

You don't get second chances

When the hour is near

The hour has come

What's done is done

The hour has come

What's done is done

Next Chapter

VERSE 3

Lungs are closing up

Gasping for your last breath

Drawing lines when you flatline

Waiting room screams death

Breathe No More

Wounds finally heal

All the words you filtrated

Cast shadows that I no longer feel

BRIDGE

And all in life is real

CHORUS

You don't run the world

My sweet child of fear

You don't get second chances

When the hour is near

The hour has come

What's done is done

The hour has come

What's done is done

Real Love.

VERSE 1

Poison touch my lips

I can taste it on my tongue

Three months in

Look what you have done

Call the doctor in

I'm on a sugar rush

Don't let me come down

Tainted love making me blushh

CHORUS

Oh No!

This shit is real

You're not a fake

Nothing artificial

Oh Oh No!

Take my pulse

I'm beating in synch

With a heart I repulse

But this is real

Real as this is

Oh No!

Real Love

VERSE 2

Lay me down

So I can get no sleep

Put an I.V in my arm

His blood is in me deep

Call the doctor in

I need to be recessed

My head is spinning now

Knowing you are the best

CHORUS

Oh No!

This shit is real

You're not a fake

Nothing artificial

Oh Oh No!

Take my pulse

I'm beating in synch

With a heart I repulse

But this is real

Real as this is

Oh No!

Real Love

VERSE 3

And I scream,

Fuck this stupid love, I quit

But I am in your asylum

He asks why I forget

Then I wake

From the lunatic, lucid dream

They have me all pinned down

Gagged so I can't scream

BRIDGE

And maybe why you sweat at night

Is 'cuz you always win the fight

CHORUS

Oh No!

This shit is real

You're not a fake

Nothing artificial

Oh Oh No!

Take my pulse

I'm beating in synch

With a heart I repulse

But this is real

Real as this is

Oh No!

Real Love

Favors.

VERSE 1

Free fall into empty spaces

You don't want me to save you

So shut the lights off in your mind

Shut me out and say we're through

There's no last words to say

You couln't care less

Nothing left to scream out

When I'm just second best

CHORUS

Do yourself a favor

Bleed yourself to sleep

Because I will be sober

Honestly I stay asleep

Do yourself a favor

Let me do you one

Set your toxins out

Let them kill you done

You're just asking for Favors

VERSE 2

If life is but a sin

Then I'm fooling all the worst

But If Love is your intent

Save your lies for your own curse

And swallow all the water

That will be your own tears

You will live in regret

Suffer in your own pain for years

CHORUS

Do yourself a favor

Bleed yourself to sleep

Because I will be sober

Honestly I stay asleep

Do yourself a favor

Let me do you one

Set your toxins out

Let them kill you done

You're just asking for Favors

VERSE 3

Are you cutting deep enough

To feel the way that I feel

Do you live in your own fantasy

Because some would scream it's real

And to those who've been tortured

For those left to die

You know what is real

When you see through my eyes

BRIDGE

This is beyond the point of hurt

When there's no tears or blood

CHORUS

Do yourself a favor

Bleed yourself to sleep

Because I will be sober

Honestly I stay asleep

Do yourself a favor

Let me do you one

Set your toxins out

Let them kill you done

You're just asking for Favors

This Is Me Breaking Up With You

VERSE 1
How do I decide what is real
And what is all predend
You kept me hanging on to
A dream that we knew would end

In the imagination that
I was right for you
You fogged the mirror
That I tried to see through

CHORUS
This is me breaking up with you
Telling you how I finally feel
This is me breaking up with you
Calling in the devil to end the deal

This is me breaking up with you
The one guy I would run to
This is me breaking up with you
Tell me what else can I do

VERSE 2
Shooting you down with a pistol
A bullet that has 'pain' written
Maybe pull the trigger on myself
Take another bite out of what's been bitten

I brought you all my love
When that was not enough
Gave you everything I had
They say that love is tough

CHORUS
This is me breaking up with you
Telling you how I finally feel
This is me breaking up with you
Calling in the devil to end the deal

This is me breaking up with you
The one guy I would run to
This is me breaking up with you
Tell me what else can I do

VERSE 3
I'm on the verge of falling

Into empty spaces with nothing left

Maybe we were bandits at heart

Lusting for selfish, foolish juvenile theft

Fighting for a reason to love

When everyone else screamed out lust

Maybe they were right on that

You were just a thing left not to trust

BRIDGE

And I can not live this way

CHORUS
This is me breaking up with you
Telling you how I finally feel
This is me breaking up with you
Calling in the devil to end the deal

This is me breaking up with you
The one guy I would run to
This is me breaking up with you
Tell me what else can I do